不能继续在交大读书已经成为一个现实了，但是还是对曾经的那个愿望念念不忘，总是想着有一天学校能够作为轨道交通的一站，让更多的学生感受到不一样的轨道交通文化！

       今天偶然看到姜帆的空间，似乎这一切又勾起了我对半个月前的想念，我知道我再也追不到了，半个月来，过着物是人非的生活，一切都变得那么无趣，因为缺少了这些人在身边。
       该，期盼模糊的未来；还是为，纪念一时的痛快。该，迷信感情的能耐；还是要，臣服天意的安排……一声声再见不停在倒带，难道拥抱，都是为告别彩排！
       突然意识到自己已经有半个月没有听过歌了，真的是因为自己有点忙，这几天心情不那么好，很感谢有些兄弟还在安慰着我，说实话，我发现我做不到原来那么不好了，四年前，我也许有现在一样的处境，但是这一群可爱的人去帮助了我，当四年后我再次面对这样的处境的时候，我真的不知道旁边有谁能帮到我，我再一次站在了人生的低谷，我变得迷茫，变得忧郁，变得无所适从。虽然偶尔有人能劝劝我，但是以我的性格，根本不是听道理就能让自己走出来的。我不知道怎么才能用自己的道理去说服自己。
       面对一种离别，几分伤痛，十分不舍……但却只有这一条路，还记得当初签了就业协议的时候意气风发的跟留在成都读研和生活同学说，我会早日杀回成都，跟各位会合，还记得承诺要下个学期请这几位留在成都的同学吃饭，但是当自己真的身处这样的环境的时候，我已经找不到这样的方向了，我突然间不敢去想自己的那些承诺，因为我意识到我做不到了，我不敢跟他们道歉，因为我怕，我怕自己会更痛苦，因为我从来就不是一个失信的人，但是今天我才发现我错了。
      面对告别的时代，我什么都做不了，在告别面前我就像一个傻子，面对新的生活，我什么都做不好，我就像一个失去学习兴趣的小孩子，面对人生，我什么都不知道，我就像一个迷途的小马，我已经找不到自己回家的路了。
      半个月前，我们依依惜别，唯一值得庆幸的是，几个月前我们好好珍惜了这段感情，有机会就拉几个人出去疯、出去玩，至少没有留下太多的遗憾。还记得那天送姚丽去川大，她说要是大一的时候大家就有这样的感情就好了，那么这四年之别就不会显得那么悲凉，那么遗憾了。这的确是理想化的状态，可以说根本无法实现，这就是人与人沟通的过程，从开始到结束，就是一个不断沟通深入的过程，我们体会了这过程中的痛苦与不快，我们也体会了这过程中的开心和欢乐。虽然最终要离别，但是我还庆幸，我们意识到这一点的时候，我们还没有分开，还有机会跟这一帮人好好玩，好好沟通。
       当每个人都去面对自己的生活的时候，也许偶尔可以回想起这段经历，但却似乎不那么容易找到这段感情了，因为每个人都要尝试更多的生活方式，每个人都要好好为自己的人生而努力，每个人都会有新的圈子，他们不再会是原来那群人，但是我一直相信，当我们需要他们的时候，他们会尽力出现在我们身边的。所以，希望每个人都过得好，还是那句话，希望大家的人生道路能够多一些平坦，少一些崎岖，让自己的人生轨迹能够更加灿烂。
       最后，我只想为自己无法履行的承诺而道歉，对不起，兄弟姐妹们~

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        关于离别，总是有很多话题，因为那牵扯到感情问题，人之所以能够在世界上站稳脚跟，就是因为人懂得珍惜感情。多少次回首，发现自己的回忆中似乎没有那么多内容，而仅仅是那几个至今还不存在离别关系的兄弟姐妹们能够继续在我的生活中给我很多支持。当最近一次回首的时候，才发觉，原来自己真的离开了，关于离别，我有那么多感伤与不安。感伤在于，这真的是那种各自远扬似的离别，每个人都要有自己的一片天空，每个人都有会有自己的世界，也许若干年后，有些人不再记得你，也许若干年后，我们会形同陌路，那个时候才真的感到有些寂寞了。不安在于，自己的内心依旧还存留着那份纯真的感情，虽然到了社会上还没有见到那么多丑恶的现象，但是也隐约感觉到了，大学那帮人真的是做什么事情都那么无心，彼此之间不再计较有什么得失，到了离别的时候才发现，原来彼此能够快乐才是最重要的。

对于生活，一年来，我都感到是生活、是命运在捉弄我，让我的经历变的如此复杂，人说我这一年充实，经历了保研、也经历了找工作、也找到了工作，但是他们却不知道我内心实际上已经经历了多么大的打击，有更多的无奈在我内心存留而并没有写在脸上。

直到那天看了乔布斯在斯坦福大学2005年毕业典礼上的演讲，我才对这两个问题有了一定的了解，我突然间意识到，自己还是那么的普通，因为我不敢旁人无法做到的事情，这就是英才与蠢材的差异吧。也许在我05年学的时候能看到这篇演讲，我这四年会是另一个样子，但是人生总是不允许倒退的，如果自己走了这条路就尝试让自己坚定一些，正如乔布斯所说，多年后，你会发现你的人生实际上是点点滴滴的堆积，当你身处其中的时候，你发现不了，当时多年后回忆的时候，才发现，原来正是这些点点滴滴铸就了你人生中的辉煌。

尽管现在的生活与工作不那么令人满意，但是我总是希望自己人生能够有更多的机会去体验生活，尽管现在缺少这样的机会，但是我只能说这算是重生前的涅槃吧，学姐送我两个词——蛰伏，我在想，我真的能够有机会在蛰伏多年后找到自己的人生方向吗？我不敢下这样的定论，因为我怕失败，只能说，我希望我能在短期内做好自己能做的事情，哪怕刚开始没有丝毫激情，但是我也希望至少能把自己该做的做了！

最后，附上史蒂夫 乔布斯(Steve Jobs)在斯坦福大学2005年毕业典礼上的演讲，希望所有跟我身处同样境遇的人能够相互共勉。求知若饥，虚心若愚。　

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.The first story is about connecting the dots.I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5 deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it’s likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.My second story is about love and loss.I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.During the next five years, I started a company named neXT; another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the world’s first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It awful tasted medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.My third story is about death.When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all e

xternal expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and Polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.Thank you all very much!翻译：史蒂夫 乔布斯(Steve Jobs)在斯坦福大学2005年毕业典礼上的演讲我今天很荣幸能和你们一起参加毕业典礼，斯坦福大学是世界上最好的大学之一。我从来没有从大学中毕业。说实话,今天也许是在我的生命中离大学毕业最近的一天了。今天我想向你们讲述我生活中的三个故事。不是什么大不了的事情,只是三个故事而已。 　　第一个故事是关于如何把生命中的点点滴滴串连起来。 　　我在Reed大学读了六个月之后就退学了,但是在十八个月以后——我真正的作出退学决定之前,我还经常去学校。我为什么要退学呢？ 　　故事从我出生的时候讲起。我的亲生母亲是一个年轻的,没有结婚的大学毕业生。她决定让别人收养我, 她十分想让我被大学毕业生收养。所以在我出生的时候，她已经做好了一切的准备工作，能使得我被一个律师和他的妻子所收养。但是她没有料到,当我出生之后, 律师夫妇突然决定他们想要一个女孩。所以我的生养父母（他们在待选名单上）突然在半夜接到了一个电话:“我们现在这儿有一个不小心生出来的男婴,你们想要他吗？”他们回答道: “当然！”但是我亲生母亲随后发现，我的养母从来没有上过大学,我的养父 甚至从没有读过高中。她拒绝签这个收养合同。只是在几个月以后,我的父母答应她一定要让我上大学,那个时候她才软化同意。 　　在十七岁那年,我真的上了大学。但是我很愚蠢的选择了一个几乎和你们斯坦福大学一样贵的学校, 我父母还处于蓝领阶层，他们几乎把所有积蓄都花在了我的学费上面。在六个月后, 我已经看不到其中的价值所在。我不知道我真正想要做什么,我也不知道大学能怎样帮助我找到答案。但是在这里，我几乎花光了我父母这一辈子的 全部积蓄。所以我决定要退学,我觉得这是个正确的决定。不能否认,我当时确实非常的害怕, 但是现在回头看看,那的确是我这一生中最棒的一个决定。在我做出退学决定的那一刻, 我终于可以不必去读那些令我提不起丝毫兴趣的课程了。然后我可以开始去修那些看起来有点意思的课程。 但是这并不是那么罗曼蒂克。我失去了我的宿舍,所以我只能在朋友房间的地板上面睡觉,我去捡可以换5美分的可乐罐，仅仅为了填饱肚子, 在星期天的晚上,我需要走七英里的路程，穿过这个城市到Hare Krishna神庙（注：位于纽约Brooklyn下城）,只是为了能吃上好饭——这个星期唯一一顿好一点的饭，我喜欢那里的饭菜。　　我跟着我的直觉和好奇心走, 遇到的很多东西,此后被证明是无价之宝。让我给你们举一个例子吧： 　　Reed大学在那时提供也许是全美最好的美术字课程。在这个大学里面的每个海报, 每个抽屉的标签上面全都是漂亮的美术字。因为我退学了, 不必去上正规的课程, 所以我决定去参加这个课程，去学学怎样写出漂亮的美术字。我学到了san serif 和serif字体, 我学会了怎么样在不同的字母组合之中改变空白间距, 还有怎么样才能作出最棒的印刷式样。那种美好、历史感和艺术精妙，是科学永远不能捕捉到的, 我发现那实在是太迷人了。 　 　　当时看起来这些东西在我的生命中，好像都没有什么实际应用的可能。但是十年之后,当我们在设计第一台Macintosh电脑的时候,就不是那样了。我把当时我学的那些 东西全都设计进了Mac。那是第一台使用了漂亮的印刷字体的电脑。如果我当时没有退学, 就不会有机会去参加这个我感兴趣的美术字课程, Mac就不会有这么多丰富的字体，以及赏心悦目的字体间距。因为Windows只是抄袭了Mac，所以现在个人电脑就不会有现在这么美妙的字型了。 　　 　　当然我在大学的时候，还不可能把从前的点点滴滴串连起来,但是当我十年后回顾这一切的时候,真的豁然开朗了。 　　再次说明的是,你在向前展望的时候不可能将这些片断串连起来；你只能在回顾的时]]

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